Let's Shine, babyy!

I wish I could tie you up in my shoes
Make you feel unpretty too
I was told I was beautiful
But what does that mean to you?
Look into the mirror, who's inside there?
The one with the long hair
Same old me again today

My outsides are cool
My insides are blue
Everytime I think I'm through
It's because of you
I've tried different ways
But its all the same
At the end of the day, I have myself to blame
I'm just trippin'

You can buy your hair if it won't grow
You can fix your nose if he says so
You can buy all the make-up that M.A.C. can make
But if you can't look inside you
Find out who am I too
Be in a position to make me feel so damn unpretty
I'll make you feel unpretty too

Never insecure until I met you
Now I'm being stupid
I used to be so cute to me
Just a little bit skinny
Why do I look to all these things to keep you happy?
Maybe get rid of you and then I'll get back to me

YYY

Hey there you guys...

Sorie for e long tym no update. I noe I alwaes promise to update soon and stuff liddat but I've been really busy lately, kaies? Dun get mad horr... I very2 sad alreadies. *sighs*
Ummm, I'm deeply in lurv but he doesn't really noe it. Sad right? I noe e fucking truth but he thinks I dun.

Hey, sebelo2 aku ni pon kan, tkder larh terok sgt smpi tk ambil kesah tentang e environment ard me.

It's just so hurtful for me to noe e truth and for u not to tell me or atleast admit it when I freaking asked! I thot he really lurved me. Arggh! Fuck larh. Pen-ass! URGGGH!!! How do u sleep at night?? I wonderr... U're cheating on my feelings, hurting me, and pweetty much I've found another liar, but a big fat one tis tym. And oh, he "lurves" me. WOW! Perfect isn't it?? I dunno if I shld cry, scream, be quite, cause I would just rather gladly die. But then, I was told tt there's another person who cares abt me. Really2 cares. Oh, u haf no idea how much he shows his lurv to me. So cute larh... *guilty* I'm so sorie I made u cry yesterday. Really didn't mean it but I already knew it was abt me. And it's not tt I dun like u or anythg like tt, but I only respect u as my bro (or atleast cousin). But u alwaes make me smile. And tt's e best-est part of all. Hahahha! Hanging out wif u turns me into a very2 bad ahlian. Sheesh! Hahahha. And I not minahrep larhh. Stop it. Urggh!

Yes, it was very2 sweet of him to tell me tt he will alwaes stand by my side when I was crying last night, but there's no point of saying things u dun mean at all. I feel really sad to think tt u're such a big jerk. Reallyy.... Sometyms I wish I could cut myself open and show u how much lurv I haf for u or rather draw my feelings out. But tt's crazy and certainly not possible. I just want u to noe how I truly feel. And tt's enuf. I'm happy for u tt u're happy wif her (and many oder ghurls). But I just wanna noe what I did till u did tis to me? I miss e old u. I miss u alot. But as u said, ppl change... And if u're happy, I'm happy for u.

Y
PEACE! ((: