I wish I could tie you up in my shoes
Make you feel unpretty too
I was told I was beautiful
But what does that mean to you?
Look into the mirror, who's inside there?
The one with the long hair
Same old me again today

My outsides are cool
My insides are blue
Everytime I think I'm through
It's because of you
I've tried different ways
But its all the same
At the end of the day, I have myself to blame
I'm just trippin'

You can buy your hair if it won't grow
You can fix your nose if he says so
You can buy all the make-up that M.A.C. can make
But if you can't look inside you
Find out who am I too
Be in a position to make me feel so damn unpretty
I'll make you feel unpretty too

Never insecure until I met you
Now I'm being stupid
I used to be so cute to me
Just a little bit skinny
Why do I look to all these things to keep you happy?
Maybe get rid of you and then I'll get back to me

YYY

Hey behbeyy! :D

Jezz. I've been insane dese daes. GAWDDDD! What the hell is happening man? Hahahah.
Okay, shuddup. Meeting MR ...... later. Actually, now. NOW! Hahaha. But I'm so e lazyyy. ZZZ. Hahahah. He's so e leceh. Ohhhh.
Had my Histo today. Damn, it was cool uhs. I nvr study siot. There he goes calling my house. Ring3. Nahh, gonna answer LATER. Anyway!!! Back to e test. It's my fucking MYE ar sia. And I'm like "when the fuck did the Suez Canal open??" and I was like pressing my brains trying to get an answer from my deep2 memory. Yet can't get anyy. So, I just tembak lurh. It's multiple choice. 1 mark gone there... Haizzzz. Then3, section C, not complete! Arggghhh! I'm like wait-wait-wait!
And Mdm Aznah was like, "Alright, put your pens down. Stop writing."
I'm like, Fuck ar. And Nicole turned. I'm like, tak abez siot. Den she smile2. Hahahha. Giler kans? She's chinese and I talk malay to her. Haizzzz. Hahahaha.

Anyway, I gotta go meet him. Meeting my mom later tonight. We're watching movieee. Hahahaha. She's head ovel heels with Eva. Gawwwd. And she's not a lesbian people. Fuck no. Okay, till here. :DDD

And I'm out!.


P.S. Men kick friendship around like a football, but it doesn't seem to crack. Women treat it like glass and it goes to pieces.
- Anne Morrow Lindbergh

Hey ya'll...

What's been up? What cha' doin? Okayyy, I'm waaaayyy freaking bored and oh, I've got no Internet connection. Yups, it's been snip-snip (cut). Well, life is.... okay. And I'm having my exams. Today was paper 1 for EL and MT. Yupps... Hardieeee.... Well, not really except for e fact tt I didn't memorise e format for informal and formal letter writings til like this morning when Zana went through wif me. Heees... So lucky to haf her. Well, Friday, there was this HUGE misunderstanding... and Syafiq, was like somehow rather e cause of it. Yeah, bowdow. And Diana got really furious. Hahahha. And things settled down. I'll be devastated if I were Zana-less. Nyeeeet! Okieee, I'm done til here. Urmmm, he's been quite jerky lately. And something fishy is going on. I'm abt to find out! :D

Happy-happy gerl.
Dun frown, u ain't a clown. Okayyyy, wadevaaaa.
:D Aiyeeen lurves SMILINGGGG!

Hello you! :D

Umm, here's how I feel right noww.... Damn confused and insecure. Ooooh.

I'm trying to analyze every angle, situation. Trying to find an explanation cause it's getting aggrivating, why my relationships nvr seem to work out? Beginning to worry and doubt if I'm even able to detect he's e one, when to stay or when to run, why I haven't seen e sun? Shine his light on my heart and help me ease e pain cause I'm getting tired of e rain.
Falling on my heartbreak and I get my hopes up when I'm in love until we break up den I'm back to e same spot, I've been lonely, drowning cause every guy turns out to be e same. So now I'm questioning, is it me to blame?

Is it ME? Am I so complicated, or is love over-rated? cause I dun quite understand why it nvr turns out how I thot I planned. Am I too independent and not ready for commitment? cause it doesn't seem to last and it's e only question tt I nvr askd. Mayb I'm longing for it more than I shld be expecting. I'm getting possibly in e way of what is left to haf in store bcoz I'm so confused and insecure cause when i know for certain everything is going wrong I permitted to prolong. Tried my best to hold on. My Mr Right's probably hanging round my window pane while I look through only watching e rain...

Nvr thot it could be tt its me till i realized tt I'm e only common factor and played a big part in letting ppl break my heart. Nvr noticing I was wasting tym asking e same thg every tym.
Who were u with? and whr were u at?
Until I took e tym to turn and look back...


Umm, yeahh. Tis is all. Ermmm, till here.
Hearts, Aiyeeen. :D

Harlooo! Hehehhes.

Okay, dots. Umm, I've been writing Mr Apez letters. Lyk alot uhs. Hahahha. All e tym in class, "Zahreen, colourful ehs?", "Eh Rini, look. It's damn long uhs.", "Eh, ko ader marker another colour? Aku nk. Hehehes.". I tell u in class I damn annoying. Hehehhes. Especially aft CAMP CORRI. Wah, I talk non-stop sia. Woohoo! Choo-choo train pun kalah uhs. Hehe. Okay, dots. (I'm glad I've noticed. Heh.) Okieeeee...

Umm, I miss him loads uh. Chibai. Whoops! Sowieee Zahreen, I pledge to not curse or use anymore swearing okies? But tt's lyk fucking not possible uhs. Hehheheh. There, told u. Sheesh! Wargh! Seal my mouth uhs. Hahaha. Anyway, Zahreen doesn't read my blog, so heck care. Wuahhahaha! Evil sias. Okay2, back to e main story. Actually, I dun even freaking noe wad's e main story uhs. Oh yah, I miss him loads. NO, wait... Uhhs. Oh, I noe! I talk non-stop. Wait, tt story dah finish telling. Alamakk! WTH was I talking abt??? Ohk, nvm. Start a new. (I'm lame.) Dots. Uhs, okayy, I'm talking to Yati. Heh. Umm, long storyy.. Shorten, we're ex-besties... I haf sworn to nvr be her close fren again... So we're just talking. Ummm... Okay, I was kissed. Umm, by tis MAT. Hahahha. No, apek. Hahahhaha! Salah uhs. APEZ! Hehehe.

Okay, seriously Ain, wadever uhs. Klah, tt's all. Before I fill my blog wif junky details of CRAPS! I better end here. Sorieeees. ((:

HEARTS ON FIREEEEE! :D
(pls ignore my crazy sillyness. i was taught by mr apez! okieee, go look for him okies?) I'm damn innocent! (:

Hello! :D

Umm, I'm still quite confused but my thoughts are quite settled down. Okay, I haf made up my mind. I shall be wif him for as long as eternity. It's love alright.
Okay, I'm happy. No sad feelings. Hehehhe. Honestly, no haf... AT ALL!

Okieeee.... Tis feeling, it's weird. It's extra-ordinary. I felt it once before but I didn't really understood it until it was all over and I realised tt I had actually made a HUGE mistake. But tis tym, it's not gonna happen. Na-uh. NO WAYY! Hopefully not. He promised, and swore. He's cuteeee..... *melts*
Okay, I honestly cannot believe dat I'm really attached to him. I mean, aft all tis tym.... he finally get wad he's been wanting. Me. I'm happy for him. And of cause, myself. He makes me SMILEEEE. Okayyy, dots. I'm soo scared. Well, tt is a feeling I haf at e same tym too. Well, it freaks me out alot! Especially e latest news tt I just received frm him... I wonder why he does tis things. *sighs* I wish I knew. I wish he would haf at least told me. WHY? I really wonder....

But still, he makes me SMILEEEEE... :D Heh. Okay, dots. Oh.. he wrote me tis poem uh, it's damn sweet. So cute lurhs. I wanted to cry at e end of it. Sads, but yeah. Romantic giler babs. Den he's lyk "tu crite lamer uhs. dah tk lagi." I can tell he was lying. Hahahha. Okay, dots. Wadever larh eh, aiyeeen. U're lame. Okay, tis is freakyy coz I'm lyk talking to myself! WAARGHHH! Okay, dots. Shuttup! GAWWD! Urgghh! Okay, enuf! I better stop....

Anyway, my dad wants to cut e internet. Not sure if it's really gonna happen or if it's just a threat. Gudness. Urgghh!

Alright2, I better be easy and calm down before I kene scolding from my deariee... Hehehhehs. Okay, dots. Wadeverrrr....

Okay, tata! Sweet loves. :D

Hey there you guys...

Sorie for e long tym no update. I noe I alwaes promise to update soon and stuff liddat but I've been really busy lately, kaies? Dun get mad horr... I very2 sad alreadies. *sighs*
Ummm, I'm deeply in lurv but he doesn't really noe it. Sad right? I noe e fucking truth but he thinks I dun.

Hey, sebelo2 aku ni pon kan, tkder larh terok sgt smpi tk ambil kesah tentang e environment ard me.

It's just so hurtful for me to noe e truth and for u not to tell me or atleast admit it when I freaking asked! I thot he really lurved me. Arggh! Fuck larh. Pen-ass! URGGGH!!! How do u sleep at night?? I wonderr... U're cheating on my feelings, hurting me, and pweetty much I've found another liar, but a big fat one tis tym. And oh, he "lurves" me. WOW! Perfect isn't it?? I dunno if I shld cry, scream, be quite, cause I would just rather gladly die. But then, I was told tt there's another person who cares abt me. Really2 cares. Oh, u haf no idea how much he shows his lurv to me. So cute larh... *guilty* I'm so sorie I made u cry yesterday. Really didn't mean it but I already knew it was abt me. And it's not tt I dun like u or anythg like tt, but I only respect u as my bro (or atleast cousin). But u alwaes make me smile. And tt's e best-est part of all. Hahahha! Hanging out wif u turns me into a very2 bad ahlian. Sheesh! Hahahha. And I not minahrep larhh. Stop it. Urggh!

Yes, it was very2 sweet of him to tell me tt he will alwaes stand by my side when I was crying last night, but there's no point of saying things u dun mean at all. I feel really sad to think tt u're such a big jerk. Reallyy.... Sometyms I wish I could cut myself open and show u how much lurv I haf for u or rather draw my feelings out. But tt's crazy and certainly not possible. I just want u to noe how I truly feel. And tt's enuf. I'm happy for u tt u're happy wif her (and many oder ghurls). But I just wanna noe what I did till u did tis to me? I miss e old u. I miss u alot. But as u said, ppl change... And if u're happy, I'm happy for u.

hey ya'll!

it's been like wad? a few weeks since my very last post? well, haha. i'm back. not to worry. been really busy lately. my gosh! there's school, cca (which i haf not been attending. heh.), counselling, projects, idiotic fights (which i claim are very lame), friends to entertain, family members to spend tym wif, dance steps to rmbr, homeworks are yet to be done, msgs to reply, e-mails to be read, bestfriends to be contact (i miss fidah! lamer tk bbl), people to meet, many things to do.. as for now, i've got a phone call to answer. heh.

okay, 13 minutes and 22 seconds of wasted tym. tis sucks! oh, btw, i've found my fav. song. thanks to uncle jeff for making my life miserable! i really like u, alot! heh. oh, btw, (again, there i go wif btws) i think i miss aidil. as in, tengku. but heck, he's got a gf. WTF am i thinking?!? AIYEEEEEEEEN!!! history sucks! tis is one of e very gud reasons WHY! gudness! oh, ps: im gonna create a new blog soon. i'm not sure if i'm keeping tis but, we'll see. hoo!

anyways, i was thinking of, nvm...

will update soon. will TRY. promise!
toodles! (:

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